So What, I'm Ugly!

 So what, I'm ugly! 
I've had my share of the voices in my head, always telling me "I'm ugly, no one loves me, no one cares, no one wants me." Tearing everything down about me, to the point my self-esteem has been stomped all over by people who would rather tear me down instead of love me. People who never gave me a chance to prove my worth. Never even cared to see what kind of person I was and am. Always running away screaming and pointing the finger at me. Always abusing me & then blaming me. 

And now it's not just people, it's voices too. 

Sometimes, I go around and around with the voices, about how absolutely ugly I am. Alot know these "voices", it's the enemy trying to destroy us, anyway he can.
I pray my daughter never battles low self esteem. It's a beast. 

You have to come to "I am me, this is how God made me, and live for God behind that.
If you don't, them voices will destroy you. They will isolate you. They will make you feel nobody even cares about you, so they definitely wouldn't even wanna be around you. The voices are not of God, if they are not of a pure intent, they are not of God, if they don't line up with the Bible. I often wonder who all battles with this to the extent that I do. 

This kind of infliction upon one's self can cause a person to be shy and not as open with others. Trust issues run DEEP! I know, I battle with my worth because I was told one thing with actions while being beat behind closed doors with fist, more than once in my life, more than one man as well. 

Society has a "image" that makes almost every girl/woman want to live up to. To be as beautiful as them, to be as outgoing as them, to be as popular as them, to just be them. Social media is the devils play ground to steal, kill & destroy..... 

We are living in a age where we must be aware of what's going on in the Physical and Spiritual realm. 

John 10:10 KJV

The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.

Loneliness has a play in feeling ugly as well. However, to wait on God we must learn to be alone. 

Accepting my flaws so they can't be used against me!!!

We must be aware, this kind of spirit is one of "self" and to keep our eyes on ourselves, and not on the hurting, dying souls on their way to a hot hell, ready to devour them, if they don't wake up!! Accept what is, but don't let it keep you bound! 

This spirit also will bring in other spirits of depression, anxiety, self harm, and more. Pray through it. Pray over it. Pray around it. Know God made you as you are. There is a purpose for the pain. Take your eyes off of you, and look up and see all the ones hurting and bleeding. The ones who need you to be stronger than this mentality!! 

We are who God made us,
Sis Jenn Maddox

Posted 13th December 2023 by Sis Jenn Maddox