Help Me Hold On

This morning I wrestled with my flesh to pray. I wrestled spiritually so much it almost felt physical. I kept hearing Bro Williams saying "you know it's spiritual warfare when you don't even wanna pray." I finally pushed past it. It was hard too. Spiritual warfare is hard core! (the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak) all I could think was "what's the point?" and all I could cry out to Jesus is "help me hold on" tears are prayers too and sometimes all we can do is cry. As I prayed this poem just came to me. I begin to speak it as I prayed n cried out to Jesus and fought to hold on. I'm still holding on. I pray this blesses someone today. When you don't want to pray make yourself it's worth it!!! Hold on to Jesus!! Thank you to the ones who are loving me through this and praying for me and reaching out to me and encouraging me. People jus don't know how close someone maybe to slipping away back into the arms of a world that is out to devour them and send them to hell. I love you all!

Help me hold on Jesus!

Help me hold on through all of this heartache and pain.
Help me hold on through the torment and suffering.
Help me hold on when I don't even understand.
Help me hold on to your nail scarred hand.
Help me hold on for my children's souls, depend on my prayers today.
Help me hold on Jesus, my grip is slipping away.
Help me hold on when I fight to even pray.
Going back to this world terrifies me more and more each day.
Help me hold on untill this bitterness is all gone.
Help me hold on when my heart has no song.
Help me hold on despite my wretched sin.
Help me hold on for all the souls I will one day win.
Help me hold on in the broken mess that I am now.
Help me hold on knowing you are gonna work it all out somehow.
Help me hold on in my darkest night.
Help me hold on, only with you will I win this fight!
Help me hold on to cover my babies in your blood.
Help me hold on to teach them your undying love.
Help me hold on, knowing you're working your plan for my life.
Help me hold on through the good and the bad, the pain and the strife.
Help me hold on today, tomorrow and always, my babies souls has to be saved.
For there is a devil in hell who wants to have them forever enslaved.
Help me to hold on the way my momma did for me
Help me hold on even though it's so dark I can't see.
If she hadn't held on and had walked away, I would probably be in the grave today.
Help me hold on during trials and temptations.
Help me hold on when the storm is raging.
Help me hold on when the cross is cruel as can be.
Help me hold on to the promises you have just for me.
Help me hold on till the tears turn to laughter.
Life is not a fairy tale, Heaven is the only happy ever after.
So holding on may be hard to do,
but I had a Savior that held out his arm and died, to give me hope to hold onto!

©Sis Jenn Maddox
July 9,2021