April 22,2024

April 22,2024

I feel like being transparent in our broken and our healing is a huge way to help others who are going through the same pain we have once survived. I am in no way a professional writer or author, but I  have always loved to write and express how I am feeling. I am passionate about writing poetry, studying my Bible and doing bible studies and learning more about Jesus every chance I get, and just writing in general. I decided to add a journal part to my blog. Something to look back on, for me and even for my children one day. As the years take a hold of me and the gray highlights my hair, I began to see how truly much of my life was wasted away to drugs and men and pain that just wouldn't let me go.  If i could reach just one soul, my life and walking away from God will have purpose and meaning. Don't walk away child of God, don't give your one life to the harsh task master that wants you to burn with him for eternity. He is relentless. He will whip you till your dying and he will laugh about it all. What you see as beauty and gold, glitter and charm, is just a mirage of death and hell. I have a burden for young people more than anything in this world. They are the future generation. The ones who will carry this truth on. If we are being honest right now the falling away is happening as I type, and even before then. We are becoming less in numbers than we've ever been. Why? Because our generation is failing our future generation for self!! We are giving into defeat, for whatever reason that maybe, it all revolves around "self". A word I heard I believe was Bro Cody Marks, not certain on that but it has forever saturated my very being, I live and breathe it every time hurt and pain comes my way, I will ask myself this question."Are you willing to sacrifice your children's soul, at the altar of self?" Is that lil bit of pain your flesh is being inflicted with, is it worth walking away and possibly costing your children and their children their souls? Yea, its that serious. This is Heaven or Hell!! Our choice, you can't point your finger at a single soul and say "its your fault" Jesus gave us all the choice to love Him and forsake self and our own will. We can have such a huge impact on this world, either way we choose to live. We are blessed to know this truth, to know that this isn't the cult we are called, but a way out of the darkness, a way to become free of the bondage this world puts us in. They laugh and they mock, knowing not what they do or are even against. The demonic hold evil has on this world is almost unreal. Putting spells on us through television, music and more. And you think it don't take something real to live in this demonic mess? To get out of this demonic mess? O the truth is a beautiful valuable thing. Hold onto it for dear life. I pray all the lost souls finds their way to this beautiful truth. I pray we as Apostolic's take a stand, to stand for what is right because us standing, depends on our children carrying on what it takes to be saved. This is just on my heart so heavy today. My soul cries for the younger generation, but I know for the younger generation to carry this on, or even desire to carry this on, we must not only stand for Truth, but we have to cherish truth, and we have to fight for truth and what is right. This fight isn't for the weak, so if you cant get bloody, or a sword is too heavy, you have already lost. This fight is for the ones who are willing to pick up a heavy, splintery cross, with a sword in the other hand, o so so much pain, and be willing to lay down this fleshly life and this world full of its glitter and charm and choose Jesus. Over and over, just keep choosing Jesus. Praying we all make it.

Love you all,

Sis Jenn Maddox